cheers darling.

onward!

to el Jay!

(ask me)

actually i think i moved there because of the "Writer's Block" feature.

but i kept trying to draw infinity

bleedin' heck.

i am Lame.

Lame with a capital L.

Lame without the crutches, obviously.

i think i may be losing the use of my opposable thumbs :O

anyway.

cross-country runamajiggy, thingumy (friday)

was not cross-country at all. unless you count a gravel path cross-country.

gravel is not cross-country. gravel is annoying and gets into your socks and your shoes and your empty head.

the morning there (Bedok Reservoir) was pretty bad. it just finished raining and the (hot) morning sun came out.

i smelt mud.

wet mud. (obviously)

wet, squishy, sinks-your-shoes-like-a-ship-in-the-sea kind of mud.

crap.

and then we had to assemble under some tent/awning thing.

which made it worse.

because now with the lovely smell of mud was the lovely smell of hot people.

hot as in temperature, sweaty hot.

not Beckett-hot.

and to make it worse i think Phyllis stepped on a tiny frog.

-

during the "run" (in which only the crazy track people bothered to run 3.5 full kilometers), there was this dragonboat race.

ooer.

something to do with the Temasek Polytechnic orientation or somethinglikethat.

cos at that time i was texting Ezabel (myspace! myspace!) and this was the conversation. (or somethinglikethat)

E: i'm at a dragonboat race thing for my school's orientation. where're you at for that cross-country run?

L: hmm.. (then i asked Jolene because i didn't even know where i was) Bedok Reservoir?

E: OMG I'M AT BEDOK RESERVOIR TOO CAN I CALL YOU/YOU CALL ME THIS IS SO EXCITING!!

(so i called her, haha!)

heck, i didn't even know Temasek Polytechnic was next to Bedok Reservoir!

*shakes head*

tsk tsk, Lizzie, tsk tsk.

out with Faith and Jordan (still friday)

blah blah blah.

i met them at Parkway Parade.

preached of the evils of eating cream that comes with your looks-like-a-cappuccino-but-it-isn't to Jordan.

ooh yeah.

then off to Borders! *giggles*

Jord went to sit and read Gossip Girl. *Liz and Bex shake their heads*

Bex and Liz went to the magazine section!

Spin! AP! Kerrang!! exclamation marks!

Bex bought a photography magazine for her boyfriend, a Canon DSL. she wanted to get another one that was maybe $16 and when i saw it i was like, "no. way." XD

i was still deciding between Spin and Alternative Press when she moved to the PaperChase section.

*eenie meenie miney mo* ("... catch a Sarah by the toe")

(if you must know, i chose AP)

went to see how Jord was doing. ("i don't see the point of reading it! all they want to do is have sex!")

omgwtflolbbq.

joined Bex at PaperChase!

spent 30 minutes? 45? asdfghjkl; picking up stuff, looking at the price tags and putting them down again.

i so have to save up.

Bex was ECSTATIC to see adhesive photo corners. i was FLABBERGASTED by the price.

(oh vocabulary, how we love thee)

and i was (again) eenie meenie miney mo-ing between their robot collection's set-of-2 notebooks and the binder.

i choose the binder!

sexy no? it's got robots!

Bex bought wrapping paper from the discount box! and her adhesive photo mount corner things!

and we shared this:

cool eh? found this picture at perpetualkid.com.

that's us! ;)

(i'm so gonna sexify my stapler)

sleepover at Bex's (friday/saturday)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

freakin' StaceFace couldn't make it cos of her...

*dramatic theme raises to a crescendo*

dum dum dum!

... O LEVELS.

ooer.

like i said Stace, it's like a Catholic missing Lent.

*kicks you*

Bilvy

i've decided i like William Beckett.

so there.

-

quotes

Calvin: "never mind, your collar bones are sexy."
Lizzie: *freaks out, hits him*
Calvin: "what?!"

Sarah: "...but he keeps on stalking me!"
Vanessa: "Sarah, the stalker'd be behind you, not in front of you!"

Lizzie: (about The Cathay) "i love this place. one day, imma bring my momma here 'cos my momma gots the credit card."
Sarah: O.O" *does shaking-shoulders giggle*

Everyone: (just ran out of Doby Ghaut mrt station, breathing hard) "crap, where's Calvin?!"

Matt: (begins to say something)
Everyone: "shut up Matt!"

Steph: (at night, going home in the car) "you know, i just realized i'm still wearing my swimsuit under all my clothes."

i love my snappy, grandma-bangle.

with love and a zit on your nose

i fear for my brother.

i fear he may be a social outcast.

or is it that i'm just fear-ing for myself.

that he might ruin everything with his, how you call it, absurdities.

and now i fear that i may be self-absorbed.

how i digress.

and how you follow my relentless insecurities.

clarkey kway

i love my mom.

i'd write things so incredibly boring that i won't.

read my diary instead.

so instead of practicing keys with the youth band (who treat me or maybe everyone else too as always there and dispensable), i "needed a break" and went off to clarke quay with Tricia and Delane.

(and here comes a thoroughly mind-stretching account)

we met at the clarke quay (or "clarkey kway" as i say it) mrt station/mall. me with my red eyes.

then blah blah blah in points now.

- "british" takeaway's bangers and mash consist of bangers (sausages) that squirt at you viciously and liquified potatoes coming out of a machine.

- we waved to tourists. most of them waved back.

- went back to the mall to buy nail polish (by chance) and watch a fashion showcase with not-very-good models (not by chance).

- went round the stores looking at... was it rings?

then we went back home. (5-something pm)

to my house.

Delane and Tricia stayed at my house playing with the wii and i heard it was FUN (i nearly punched a hole in the tv once, by the way). but i had to leave for youth service.

they were there til 8.

we also took pictures.

colors. lots of colors.

we're thinking!
sexy socks.
Delane's foot.

takeaway crushed ice!

sky

baby baby baby

i think Tyra Banks blinks her longish eyelashes too much.

anyway.

sports day. argh.

or, -insert certain sound people make when prodded with various sharp objects-

(i went to the room to get my camera wire-thing and instead of switching on the lights i flipped the fan instead but i got the wire anyway. i say "instead".)

sunblock is good for you.

yellow,

blue,

red.

Tricia and Gracelynn look so awesome blue.
love the face(s).

i was, rubbing my eye."what are you doing, Gracelynn?!"

i bit her arm, cos it said,

goodnight

i'm reading Peter Pan In Scarlet, the official sequel to Peter Pan.

i am partial to the fairies. so sue me.

BUT ANYWAY.

while i wasn't writing you, i've been in and out of seasons.

"And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape."

that kind of sums it up.

and no, it isn't that kind of insecurity most girls my age get.

"oh my god, i'm so fat!"

"oh my god, what if he doesn't like me?"

no, it's the kind of crappy thing you get when you say you're such a great actor you even fool yourself and you feel everyone can't see you and you think everyone's treating you like a baby (when they get around to even seeing you) and the kind of thing that makes you stay up writing in your journal/big blank book and contemplate ahem.

again.